I miss you, Father.

got a new book from peulah!

it's time to put pen to paper.

“In those days, I didn't understand anything. 
I should have judged her according to her actions, not her words. 
She perfumed my planet and lit up my life. 
I should never have run away! 
I ought to have realized the tenderness underlying her silly pretensions. 
Flowers are so contadictory! 
But I was too young to know how to love her.” 

― Antoine de Saint-Exupéry, The Little Prince

when I was 16

I cant wait to be 18

so that I can do whatever i want

I can officially have a boyfriend

I can drink I can drive I can dance in the rain

then I was 18

nothing happened.

things were still things

more stuff more clothes more responsibilities

so I thought when I am 21 

I am going to rock and roll the world

because I am 21 and young and wild

then I was 21

then I am 23

take me away peter pan

grow up is not my thing

it will never be my thing

“I showed the grown ups my maasterpiece, 

and I asked them if my drawing scared them. 

They answered why be scared of a hat? 

My drawing was not a picture of a hat. 

It was a picture of a boa constrictor digesting an elephant.” 

God knows what is going happen

but I don't 

it is like holding a small candle in a dark room

all you can see is the things around you

nothing further than that

you step a step forward

then you realized there is a table there

and then another step

ohhh, there is a door there.

somehow I looked back to the past

it is feel like they were meant to happen

so I can be who I am right now

so I can be where I am right now

good or bad

everyone's life is like a story book

the ending is fixed

no matter you read it or not

no matter which book you read

the author of the book had already put down the full stop.

unchangeable

it just waiting for you to read.

I wonder 

who am I going to be after 10 years

what is my ending?

and only God knows.

所以做了工

领悟了很多

我想这就是其中一种踏出comfort zone吧

那天

Rev才说

不要八卦

什么是八卦

就是你把一个问题告诉一个不能帮忙解决问题

也不是问题里主角的人

那就是八卦

本来听后

告诉自己不能再用嘴巴伤人了

有时候忍忍不说

有时候还是不小心的说了

有时候却知道不能说还是兴高采烈的说了

那天做工

就这样

一传十

十传百

百传千

明知道

人在做

天在看

明知道

自己是老天幸运的孩子

就要不能跟随世界的脚步

要以爱为主

还是当了那个一

内疚

内疚

内疚

以后

不要当那个一

不要当那个十

也不要当那个百

他说

如果心痒痒就告诉他

别把话说给河流听

河流会流去另个河流再下个河流再流向大海

不如就直接和大海说

要不然就和不变的湖说

大家

不要当巴刹的女人

知道习惯难改

但是大家不说就不会有人说了

要大家一起这么做

就要从自己做起了