其实在你的心里 

我并没我想象中那么重要吧 

突然觉得 心好痛 

可能是肚子饿了

yea, 

happiness comes uninvited

happiness goes unannounced.

i have been having these mixed and unknown feelings

no words can describe how i feel

happy? nervous? sad? guilty?

i don't know.

 it's Friday 

and i am unhappy without reason.

don't feel like talking.

i just want to shut my mouth up.

and block my ear 

so i wont hear what you have to say.

it happens all the time

every time when i am really looking forward to something.

thing might not end up as expected.

and now, i am scared.

similar thing will happen again, 

i knew, i always knew.

it's like a curse a spell.

i should be happy.

i brought a nice dress

except that i look fat in that dress.

and i get myself a charming prom date.

and i am not forced to found one

like what i did to my friends.

and i am going to the prom night tomorrow.

nothing will go wrong.

ya, i should be happy

but why, why i feel so moody :(((

i feel like all my happy hormones had been used up.

after Saturday,

everything will back to normal

back to my bored-no life-terrible life.

Life is so full of unpredictable beauty and strange surprises.

when something is just too beautiful

it's like a meteor shot across my sky

and suddenly everything was on fire

there was brilliancy

there was beauty

but when the meteor had fallen over the horizon

everything went black

nothing had changed

but my eyes were blinded by the light

i couldn't see the stars that used to appear on my dark night sky anymore.

cheerio, my friends 

本来

一片平静的湖面

来了一艘小船

湖上变得

繁华喧闹

湖面起了小浪

澎湃的小浪

船的经过

模糊了湖底

但是船走了

湖面回到平静

湖底又浮现了

就好象什么也没发生过

就好象快乐来了

然后又被带走

剩下的也只有心酸。

我的心情就像这湖。

yep!

i am going to the prom!

my first prom night

no dancing,please!!

i cant dance!

if you want me to dance

i'll just die.

my prom date,

thankssss :))

i own you that.

please forgive me :(

i will always live in this guilt.

always.

happy father's day!

happy father's day, my king :)))

oh god!

i miss my long hair lahhhh

Wenn,

stop crying!

Please don't go, boy :'(