晚上1039

我才刚睡醒

隔壁的房间好兄弟

就inbox我要不要kfc

虽然不明白

为什么就几步路的距离

喊一下也肯定听得到

为什么要inbox

弄到好像我很远般

我还是走了过去

敲敲门

spiderman

LET'S GO KFC!

1042

听着Adam Levine

吃了薯泥

喝着可乐

guilty pleasure

一位营养师的guilty pleasure!

我说

难过了很多天

我今天

很认真的看着天空

在心里呐喊

怎么最近这么不顺

做什么都不对

不是failed 就是 rejection

再加一点delay 和 postponed

我就说

老天如果这是你的Plan

就像她说的

每个人都有一个生存的目的

那么我想

老天现在在考我

到底有多强大

this must be his naughty game for me

but everyone knows I am a gamer

play along then, I smiled

trust me

I will play fucking hard 

I will take control of the game

and I will win not immediately but definitely.

就像我一直玩的ps4

一关一关的闯

solving problem 101:

solve one at a time

one after one

列出了一张长长的

to do list

然后解决方案

solving problem 102:

let it go and move on

what's done is done

我想

飞机票就算了

airasia让我吐血

拿回300也补不回

当做买了教训

GDEX的时间

好好利用女人的角色

撒撒娇

就解决了

solving problem 103:

solutions are meant to be done

那天

才说

离开的人

让我明白

要好好珍惜留下来的人

不要再又要离开的时候

遗憾一切的不珍惜

我想

我真的想把时间都给他们

1年不长

10年我都觉得不长

让我感受到爱的她

让我感受到爱的他

我想

努力的珍惜

直到那天

我不放飞机

站在你们身边

抢了你们的方帽

我们一起笑呵呵的拍照

朋友

出门快乐的时候

想到我

就打个电话吧

如果我手上的to do list

正空着

我们就一起去郊游

我难过了很多天

今天真的有希望的感觉

我想

我回来了

1年前的我回来

不再fucked up

不再messed up

至少头脑

positive力量很强大

那紫色的dream catcher

是我快乐的理由

我们几时开始

那么心灵相通

我还真的很想很想你

倒数22天

My ideal of love is always the same

the unconditional love

He told me that

whoever can achieve that kinda love

is not human

only HIM. 

only HIM can give me the unconditional love.

no, I said

it's not true

it can never be true

my ideal of love is not only an ideal

but an experience I got it from the past

and I am craving for more and more

till it becomes an ideal, the perfect one

and it's all comes from him

friends of mine are planing to go somewhere far

out of Malaysia

out of this already explored world

to somewhere new

to somewhere god knows where

so mum called

asked why, why and more why

that I am not joining them

obviously

I am just another broke undergraduate student

with hundreds in my pocket to survive with my dinosaur ego

that I cannot ask for money from anyone

it makes me feel like I am an OKU

that I am already 21 ,and still I cant feed my own self.

I have no extra for any more luxuries

though travel is definitely not a luxuries for me

travel is like studying

I need to travel to learn more

it's like knowledge, never can get enough of it.

guess what

guess what made me tears drop like waterfall

mum quoted the conversation with dad

mum: girl says she wants to go travel with XXX, she wants a thousand from you 

dad: drive me to my factory, I am working extra time.

unconditional love

the love is real

I can feel it

I can see it

I can even hear it

and it's all came from him

him, my daddy

this is the love I am looking for in the world

to fill the void in my heart.

I am blessed 

since the day they created me.

It has been raining all day

the cold wet weather made me sicker

how ironic that I am still enjoy the rain

the sound of the raindrops

the smell of grass when the rain showers on it

the deafening silence

somehow after all of these

I can find peace in it  

so here I am

covered by my pink blanket

a cup of tea

listening to Christmas song

trying to finish up everything in my list

bounded by all the troubles lately

and the happy me is hiding in her pink blanket

refused to come out

I hope you were here

but you weren't

you weren't

First of December 

I woke up regretting that I have fallen asleep

31 days to complete everything I wanna do in this year

the year full of up and downs

MAKE IT YOLO, BABE!

当快乐无忧的女生

被一大堆烦恼困扰

刘巧雯

加油

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