back from RYLA

wore out and tired

tiredness took over me

while my brain full of thoughts

that day

i was sitting at the cornea

looking at the crowd of youngsters

below 18

a boy 16

taking off his clothes like he has done a thousand times

dancing and maybe touching his partner 

a girl 19

taking off her partner clothes like she has done a thousand times

dancing and maybe touching her partner

a girl 8 years old

looking at them

mimicking

dancing like she is learning abc

first thought of mine

OMG, EWWW! why is his taking off the clothes

you are fucking underage,boy!

second thought of mine

OMG .EWW! what was i doing when i was 16

hmmm... form 4? playing badminton with my friends?

maybe worrying about my parents not giving permission for me to go out with my friend

oh god, i really want to catch a movie with my friends.

third thought of mine

OMG. EWW! what happened to the world

and i felt sick

felt sick for looking at them

felt sick to know that the world is changing

into something i am not sure whether its good or bad

why am i felt sick

i was pondering

am i not open minded enough?

aint i am the same as them

treated my body as a toy

i played with it

i danced with it

i YOLO with it.

thought i can do anything i want

dont give a shit about the rules and regulations

and now i was standing there looking at myself

reflection

all i saw was disgust and disrespectful

i wanted to be free

i wanted to boundless

yet

the more i fly

the more i loss my values

what is right

what is wrong

am i right

or are you?