I wonder anyone felt the same way as me

you know

something happened

and it just changed you forever

and no matter how much you cared 

and no matter how much you wanted it to stop, just for once

and no matter how much you wanted to forget 

and no matter how hard you tried to pretend it was nothing

but it just there, repeating itself, again and again

then one day

you woke up and all the energy and happiness in you just used up

and left you with your emptiness and hopelessness

then you said 

screw it! I GIVE UP

just let it be.

and hope that God will make this better

or just simply walk away

or erase your memory

or maybe change your brain

so that you can stop feeling this way

and become who you used to be

I dun understand

why can't it stop

oh darling

why cant you stop?